Anxiety for next week

So a week from today around this time I will be in a recovery room recuperating from my surgery. I am torn and even having second thoughts.

We hired a temp to cover for me but she seems slow and this morning had a hard time turning on the computer, finding MS Outlook and remembering where the files where. Mind you I created a binder with print screen with step by step instructions of what needed to be done but I didn't think I had to go to the basics.

So I am in the office area and she is in my office...I am waiting for her to finish doing the one task sending the timecards to the temp agencies by e-mail. So far I have gone on FB and checked peoples status and now I am blogggin lets see how long this takes.

I learned this weekend that the best pj options after my surgery are going to be nightgowns. I don't like nightgowns. I went in search of nightgowns and I could not find any I liked or were modest. I mean really sleeveless who wants to do that when it is not summer. Anyhow my search will continue today after work. Which will be hopefully soon.

I also am not sure what I will wear. Everything I read this weekend says I will not be able to wear my regular clothes for the first few weeks. Seriously? So I am so missing my friend Jane who used to make those tshirt dresses. I would totally have her make me a couple for the recover time.

Tempted of just taking Thursday and Friday off as vacation days. I have a lot to do like maybe pack the clothes I will be able to wear - and ship to my brothers house with all my other stuff. Then I can pack my hospital bag / weekend bag and not have a lot to carry. As well as clean my place. I cleaned it and it was looking good but then this weekend happened. That is one thing I had not thought of...I wont be able to carry anything heavy and where will my huge suitcase go while I am in the hospital. This surgery is really a lot more work than I thought.

I am having a little bit of anxiety and really did not need to be at work today but I came so I could help train the temp on some other things I do but I just don't have the patience or the energy to do it. The clerical side of my job is not that difficult at least not to me or is it and I am just a genius?

So I have shared my anxiety thoughts/feelings and she is still not done. HELP me I am a little worried about her but then again I don't care. Bad attitude huh!!!