Jobless

My last day at the City of Keller was on January 3, 2019.  Didn't I love that job?  Yes, yes I did.  However, there were some management changes in my department and I no longer enjoyed the position I was hired for.  Do I regret leaving that position?  That is harder to answer but I will do my best.  I regret leaving without a job as I am still not employed but I do not regret leaving an environment that was not healthy for me.  I was the second of three individuals to leave so I think that speaks loud about the situation and it validates my decision for the need to resign and leave.

228 days later I am looking for a full time position.  It has been a bumpy ride and I didn't ever imagine it would be this long before I found a full time position.  I search and apply for jobs and even have interviews and final interviews but just can't seem to land a full time position.  Why?  Well here are some of the reasons:  I am a risk as I may move back to CA;  I am over qualified; I am under qualified; they can't pay me what I should be paid; it was a difficult decision but we are going with the other candidate.  Am I discouraged?  Heck yeah,  who wouldn't be?  I am not used to this much rejection and I have opened my search to anywhere in TX and even out to the west and still nothing.

I have attended networking events and as uncomfortable as it is, I do enjoy it. But I just haven't been able to get to the Southlake Focus Group because I am discouraged and not sure it is worth going - I really planned to go today but I just couldn't do it.

How do I keep busy ?  Well, when I am not down feeling like pond scum, I look for a job, attend networking events, and go to my part time job.  I am also fortunate to be able to spend time with friends and do some service here and there.  I make a mess in my home and try to clean it up.

How much longer can I go?  Not a whole lot longer and that is super scary to me.  I need things to turn around soon like tomorrow. 

What have I learned from this experience?  I think this has taught me that the old school practices I do like send thank you letters to people I interview is worth the time.  I have also learned to not be so wasteful with my money and food.  I truly have more things than I need and I don't need to buy everything I want.  This weekend I am going to start sorting and decluttering my place.  I am pretty good about that as I am known to get rid of things every six months but truth be told I have not done that since I moved to TX but I did acquire things and I need to reassess what I have and get rid of those extra items.  I have also learned that food storage is important.  While mine is not as traditional having a good inventory of the nutrition system I take on hand has been a money saver.  I still have a ways to go but I am slowly learning.