Random Thoughts

So many thoughts have gone through my head the last few weeks and here they are.



1. I don't know why this recent injury happened but I do know I can beat it.



2. Having this happen and realizing I am older and single has made me realize that while being single is ok and I am good with it. It does suck in situations like this.



3. I know some very amazing individuals that care about me and want to help me without a second thought.



The acts of kindness and service and just willingness to help me totally make me realize how my last number is so unreal.



4. In 2003 or so I was in the best shape of my life doing tae kwon do, kickboxing, water aerobics, swimming, and preparing for a marathon. What happened to that girl? Well she has been hiding for a long time behind a desk by working long hours.



5. I wont be able to do kick boxing or tae kwon do well sparring or running. However, I will be able to swim, ride a bike and become a strong confident woman.



6. I have been insecure for a long time and felt as though I was unlovable.



So if I look at the list a lot of these items are all related and had an effect on my life.



With a little heart to heart talk from my oldest niece I shared with her how in 2014 I was going to be selfish and focus on myself. Focus on myself and really believe that I was loved and worth caring about myself.



Interestingly enough I connected on FB with a cousin of my mom and last night she e-mailed me about how she remember my parents being so excited waiting for me to be born and how excited they were when I was born. Now the key in this sentence is that they knew when I was coming and knew when I was born. She doesn't know the details of my adoption but she did remember the excitement and the love my parents had about me.



I know this road wont be easy and there will be challenges.



On another note I was also told at PT today that I can walk without my immobilizer but to be careful. Good thing I just had it on because I almost tripped with my own crutch. Argh just had to happen to keep me humble.



So there my random thoughts are some deep revealing thoughs about what I have been thinking the past few months.