In my 20's I wanted a hysterectomy so bad. Why? Well I started my period in elementary school and often had to miss a day or two because I was in so much pain and I could barely walk that I just slept. I eventually grew accustomed to the pain or maybe it was the pain killers I took that finally got me to just deal with it.

I knew I did not want to have a baby so I figured; why not a hysterectomy. However that was not realistic.

About four years ago I started having horrible periods again totally unpredictable ( I was never really predictable) and the pain and feeling worn out just came back again. I had a physical and shared with the Nurse Practitioner some of my symptoms. Her response: "Don't worry it is part of getting old, if things get worse we can check into it". I was thinking old? I am in my thirties I am not old; but I figured ok maybe I am. So I endured. Then last spring my physical blood work came back that I was severely anemic. The Physician Assistant called me in and wanted to know how I was feeling what was I doing etc. I didn't think of saying anything about my periods but then I thought why not, things are getting worse. I told her my symptoms and how they had gottten worse. She was surprised to hear that I had been told to not worry and that it was part of getting old. So began my journey.

I increased my iron supplement and had to have a recheck in three months. In the meantime I had moved to San Diego so I opted to stay in my HMO network as my PA seemed to really diligent to doing things right.

When I finally met Dr. Conner I had new hope. My ultrasound showed I had fibroids. I was certain I wanted a hysterectomy and was surprised when she said she wanted to do a diffrent procedure as my iron levels were too low for surgery. So I figured ok she is the professional and I will go with that.

A month later and probably the worst period ever and most humiliating things happening I went back the birth control did not work. I was not scheduled to have a period until December and here in November I had a 3 week period and it was constant heavy.

I went back to my appointment with Doctor Conner and this time she said my iron level was up (finally) and she wanted to get approval from my HMO to do a hysterectomy. I was schocked and surprised. I agreed and so we went.

I was initially scheduled for 12/20/11 but I opted to reschedule for 1/9/12. It was scary but I knew it would be ok.

Do I regret it? No not yet. I had a lot of pain initially and it comes and goes now. However, I tell myself if I don't have to worry about having an accident, feeling worn out, and I am able to have a normal life than it was so worth it!!!!

Living the vida of luxury!!!

The other evening I was talking to my friend Perri who always manages to make me laugh. As I was giving her an update of my days and what I am doing she proceeded to say "Sounds like you are living the life of luxury!!". I had to laugh and say yes, I guess I am.

So I had a few days where all of a sudden I just felt like yuck. Today I felt great when I got up. I did not hurt when I got out of bed and it did not ake a 1/2 hour. I just did it. I was able to watch the 49er game and was sad with the outcome.

Today I woke up at 5 am all on my own and stayed up until 6 or so and then I fell back asleep. I woke back up at 8:30 layed in bed and then got up. I was able to watch the Today show (my new favorite morning show) watched a CSI Las Vegas episode I had not seen. I then thought about continuing to be laze but opted for a shower.

Then I had lunch with my sister in law and walked around the house and tired myself out and took a nap. I walked around listenend to some voice mail messages from 2 weeks ago and laid in bed waiting for dinner.

I got up had dinner watched last weeks episode of Big Bang Theory which I do not think we recorded the final 20 minutes the ending was too odd if we did.

I am ging to bed early since tomorrow is my two week follow up. It will be the first time I have gotten in  a car  in 2 weeks and driven this long, have an appointment 10 - 20 minutes and then back to Palm Desert. Do I regret my choice for this surgery? I don't think so but I definitely did not think it was going to kick my butt like it has.

All day I kept thinking "yes Perri, this is the life of luxury for me. Delicious meals made by my sister in law, family around and my shadow walking behind me (my niece creeped up behind me but because I can't move fast I could not see her) I love her..

11 days later

I guess I should let people know I don't have my phone ringer on and I hardly carry my phone with me.I do this so I can rest and sleep. I appreciate the texts and e-mails but please understand I don't have energy to respond to each text and if I do it is nothing more than a good or thanks. Which is why when I do have energy I blog so everyone can be updated.

I haven't provided daily updates because I have had a couple of days where it hurts to get get up and out of bed. I am not sure why but all of sudden it takes me almost a 1/2 hour to get the courage to get up and endure the pain. My incisions are itching and the right upper one where they did all the work hurts the most. I am grateful that after Wednesday last week I felt great and no pain so I guess I have to have my pain now.

I feel ok otherwise. I am tired of not being able to do things so maybe the pain is a sign that I need to take care of me. So I have slept a lot the last few days.

My sister in law is amazing. I have always admired stay at home mothers. They do so much, make breakfast, lunches, sew buttons, do laundry, fold laundry, clean kitchens, bathrooms, make cookies for meetings, PTO meetings. My sister in law does all that and is now taking care of me. I can't even beging to thank her for all she has done for me the last few days.

This morning I had mail here addressed to Ms. Adriana E and it was from Canada eh! My sister in laws brother Evan lives there her sister Bonnie too. Anyhow Evan has some great kids, Brian, Lori, Erin, Hayley, and Jay. I have been able to get to know their kids and watch them grow. I have spent more time with Brian and Erin but they are all really good kids. We talk on FB ocassionally, mostly Jay and I. I even played the hey do you know Evan A*&$#)DO ( I dont put peoples last names on here sorry) at LAX on my way to France last summer. The man I asked was from Toronto. The lady next to him asked him if hew knew some family and the man said no. I thought let me try and he was like Evan A*&$#)DO yes I do the man that uses the F bomb as a noun, verb , adjective etc. I was like yeap. Turns out he was Melanies cousin. Melanie is married to Evan. Small world huh? Anyhow like all of my sisters siblings this family is very amazing and welcoming to all. So when I got their Get Well card it brought tears of joy. I am blessed to know so many great people in my life and have them as part of my family.

Betty White Off Their Rockers and one week later so many random thoughts.

So I woke up at 5:15 and thought wow a week ago today I was on my way to Orange Coast Memorial. I had yummy chocalate chip pancakes and strawberries.

I took a nap and then took a shower and wow did that feel good.

I did some e-mails. Kept looking at the clock and remembered where I was at that point during the day. At 3ish I remembered I got up and walked around so I did the same thing around that time.

We had a really good dinner - my sister in law is so good not only to me but her family. I have always known how a stay at home mom is an ongoing job. Being with her and having her take care of me has only proved that even more. I am truly blessed that I am here being taken care of by her.
We watched the Betty White Birthday celebration. I hope that I can be a positive influence to others. I have a lot of work to do that. Her new tv show Off Their Rockers was hilarious. when the Golden Girls theme was played at the end I thought I love that song and it rings so true these days. Thank you to all my friends..I have appreciated and valued your friendship.

I enjoyed seeing the Santa Monica Pier, Huntington Beach Pier and then the Buena Park Mall. My first legit job was at Sears at that mall. It is fun to watch a show where you see areas you have lived by and have been a part of your life.

Cupcakes and Golden Globe Awards

Hey I am actually blogging on the day I am blogging about.

I didn't get much sleep last night so  I slept in until 10 or so. I had some oatmeal and watched Make it or Break It with my niece. Yes she hooks me on to some of the most interesting shows.

I then got fully dressed all by myself I have been getting dressed on my own but just wearing nightgown and robe.

My sister in law and I went for a walk to the mailbox. This was the first time I went outside since I left the hospital., walked around Target. It was nice to feel the fresh air and see the outdoors. I also received my EDD confirmation they received my claim and it appears they are going to pay me more than I thought so I have to make sure I don't get paid more than what I earn normally. My company provides salary continuation so anything the state does not pay me they do ensure I have a full check while on my disability. Awesome right? I think so.

I also had mentioned to my sister in law that for some reason I had been craving Sprinkles cupcakes. I don't like cupcakes but I am craving them. So she spoiled me and made me some chocolate cupcakes from scratch. I am truly grateful and blessed that I have such an amazing family.

We had yummy turkey burgers for dinner, pasta salad and roasted cauliflower. I did have a cupcake and it was yuummy even yummier than Sprinkles because it was made to spoil me.

We watched the Golden Glove Awards and that was fun!!

I got anxious all of a sudden and wanted something to do. I was feeling so helpless and tired of not doing anything and just sitting around. So my sister in laws solution was for me to go on my computer. So here I am blogging and on Facebook.

Saturday January 14

Yesterday was ??
I think I went and did too much updating and my brain is dead.

I tried to buy spring training tickets but I couldn't connect to Ticketmaster.

I watched an amazing 49ers game. I thought I was going to have a heart attack but in the end my team one.

A family friend, Susan, came to watch the Broncos game. We ordered pizza and had a 1.5 hour wait for delivery. They delivered after an hour. The game was well the game was heartbreaking but I still think Tebow did a lot of great things for the Broncos this year. He is young and this was a learning experience.

I was so tired and went to bed around 9 or so. I fell asleep for a couple of hours and then woke up cold and then 1/2 my body was hot and the other cold and I felt like I had a huge gas bubble going down my stomach. I don't think I got very much sleep.

I had a chance to talk to Perri and that was fun and welcomed. I don't carry either of my cell's with me but I saw she called and called her back or wait did I happen to walk by the phone when she called. Either way it was nice to hear her voice and catch up on silly but funny things that I knew she would understand.

Friday January 13

Woke up and got up and no pain well maybe just a little.

I slept in and went and had breakfast and prune juice a whole big glass.

The juice did its magic and I napped the afternoon away.

I also started reading a book but fell asleep. I didn't take as much Motrine nor Tylenol/Codeine.

I took another shower and I felt great.

It was an early Friday night for bed. I took some motrine and got myself in bed all by myself.