How lucky am I?

OK so it has been one long emotional week.
I had a great time last weekend with my previous roommates Sharon and Eileen and the person I recruited to replace me Yolanda who visited me in SD. We went to the SD Temple and it was amazing followed by a picnic in my living room with some of my new friends from my PB Ward. Then it was off to cruise the streets of Gas Lamp Quarters and Downtown. A lot of traffic and entertaining.
Oh wait, I forgot on Saturday I got a call from work and almost had to come in for an EE relations matter.
So Monday I began with that task at hand.
Sharon texted me that afternoon to let me know the long awaited letter from my doctor's office had arrived. I texted her back and asked her to open it and call me. She was hesitant but I was anxious to hear that my severe anemia was cured. However, I heard her read the words "Your anemia numbers are significantly lower make an appointment immediately". I couldn't quite understand how this could be as I am taking Iron supplements, birth control, eating red meat and green colorful vegetables each day. So I thanked her and quickly hung up and dialed to make an appointment.
I was emotional because I realized that somehow I had managed to convince myself that I was getting better but the reality is I am struggling with simple things sometimes and still feel incredibly tired and cold at odd times.
I went to Seal Beach the next afternoon. I had planned to work a couple of hours but I worked until 1:30 pm and broke down to my GM as I confided in him about my health issue.
When I arrived at my doctors I felt a sense of peace as I smelled the ocean breeze. I went in and was quickly seen. My PA does not understand why my numbers are decreasing even with the iron supplement and increase in red meat and green colorful veggies. I am having an ultrasound on September 13 in Long Beach.
I know some of you may be reading this and thinking high drama...maybe it is but remember this is my life and my blog. But honestly I am realizing I am not young. I am supposed to be trying to lose weight for my health but all of a sudden I can't because 1. I get very tired after starting to walk and my goal was to be running by now. 2. I have also now been told not to exercise or exhort myself because of my low iron - but keep up the weight loss Is that a little contradictory from a medical provider. 3. I went to the Nurse Practitioner last October complaining about some of my symptoms and was told don't worry all this is normal as you get older. Now it will be close to a year from when I went in and I went from anemic to severely anemic to ultra severely anemic?
The other side of the coin is that I have often been told how I would be a good wife or mother and I have always thought that was not something that was in the cards for me. Why? Long story for another blog but basically I just didn't think I was good enough for either role. Now I realize that hey maybe people are right and maybe just maybe it is too late? After all wouldn't it have been nice to go home to a family (my husband) and just had a hug, a blessing and the sense of security that there was someone else there to comfort me and let me know things would be ok. Then I remembered how often just having my mom hold me or my hand or caress my hair would be so comforting and was saddenned that I did not have that in this life anymore. So I was an emotional crying mess for about 32 hours or so.
I am no longer crying every few minutes and I am trying to be positive and not focus on self pity. I may not be healthy but all week several people keep telling me they can tell I have lost weight...ha ha someone must be paying them to tell me this as I don't see it but hey I will start believing this. I am focusing on how blessed I have been with amazing family and friends.
If you are reading this and you are a family member; thank you for accepting me as part of the Eldred, Michaud family. I am truly blessed that I was adopted by the Michaud/Lopez family and even luckier when my mom married into the Eldred family. Yes my family ties may be a little confusing and disfunctional but I wouldn't trade my family for any other family in the world. Thank you for being the best family to me.
If you are reading this and you are a friend. Wow I am starting to tear up. Many of you I consider close friends even almost sisters and your families my extended family. The influence you have been to me I can not even begin to express my gratitude but know that I love you and often think of you. I am truly blessed to have friends who are loving, supporting and have unconditional love for me. Thank you for being my friend.
If you are a stranger I would ask that you think about those people who are in your life that have blessed your life and let them know and thank them.
I know my health issues will be resolved. I will update as I learn things and if you know anything to  help me become less anemic please let me know.